‘I find her attractive and we kissed’ that kept replaying in my mind over and over again and the look on Robyn’ face, it was like someone had slapped her, I broke her heart. Why did I say it? I’m so stupid sometimes I should just keep my mouth closed I thought telling the truth will work but I was so wrong because I’ve lost her, I’ve lost my family my kids I can’t see them, but she would have found one way or another. I have to obey her now so I can’t see Chanise or be there for Marley, I sighed resting my head against the car window. When she left me there I packed my stuff and got on the flight back to LA, there was no reason for me to be there I just had to stay away from Robyn and she ain’t at our home, neither is Mel or Mijo so I’m clear to go back there. I read on the blogs she left for Barbados with the kids, she was even smiling in the pictures but I can see the pain in her eyes. My phone vibrated in my hand but I ignored the call it was from Eva again, I didn’t want to talk to her after everything that went on.
My driver pulled up in to my driveway dropping me outside my house “you okay boss?” My bodyguard asked I nodded getting out “just bring the stuff in” I said before shutting the door walking to my front door and unlocking the door triggering the security alarm off I quickly put the code in turning it off. I jogged upstairs and into our bedroom and things were empty and the picture of us were gone I frowned a little sitting on the bed rubbing my head thinking back to Eva. We was in the studio and she was there she was just throwing herself at me, the flirting and me as a dumb ass I am just accepted because I’m used to hoes throwing themselves at me. But Eva knows me she knows me well and we hugged, kissed but I stopped it and then she called me when I was with Robyn I told her I was getting my marriage back and she threw me off saying she gonna tell Robyn about the kiss and that there is a video, why am I so stupid it was all laughs and giggles when she was pointing the fucking camera phone everywhere but I was high a little but not that much. “fucking dumb ass” I said out loud.
My phone started ringing again it was her “what?” I said loudly picking the phone up “You finally back home?” she said calmly “She knows so you can leave me alone now” I got up from the bed pacing the room “Still don’t change does it Chris? Robyn don’t even treat you right all you both do is argue. You know you’re happy with me, we’re always laughing together” I cleared my throat as she was saying all that shit “I love her Eva, you will never be her I may say shit and complain but me and you will never be together” Eva went silent on the phone and then it disconnected, I always end up knowing the crazy bitches I took off my shoes off and then my top. I needed a shower and then think of a way to bring Robyn back to me.
Coming to Barbados with Rihanna and Mel without Chris was a little weird to me even though Rihanna said he had work but I know that nigga he been my best friend since teenagers he did something wrong. We don’t really talk anymore because I want him to grow up and he won’t so I’m not gonna let him drag me down to his level anymore, I looked up sipping my drink “ooooohhhh look at you Chanise got a bikini on” I chuckled as she held on to her little bag walking like she was a model “momma put it on” she walked over to me “where your shades at huh?” she put her bag down on the ground and opened it looking around “here uncle” she passed them me “these are nice you going to put them on?” she nodded and I put them on for her “look at mini Robyn” she skipped off “Marley!!” she screamed at him as he carefully walked down the stairs to the pool “I coming” they was so cute it made me smile “momma said no you not come here” Chanise barked and pointed back to the house “no!” Marley replied getting to the bottom, little homie took his sweet time he ain’t going anywhere far I thought to myself. Marley pushed passed Chanise “I’m telling momma on you” Chanise stormed off “Aye what you do?” I asked and he cheesed “your momma wanted to bath you and you ran?” he nodded “She gonna come for your ass, mini Robyn and big Robyn is coming I can hear them. You better hide” I laughed “Mini Chris” I turned my head seeing Robyn and Chanise walking down “I hide” Marley ran off. I shook my head, they some crazy ass kids.
Rihanna held on to Marley’ hand taking him back inside “ha ha I told momma on you” Chanise said to Marley while he cried, I chuckled shaking my head. My phone started ringing on the side table, looking over at the caller ID, I frowned picking it up because it had a caller ID I didn’t recognize “Yo” I bluntly said not knowing who it would be “It’s me” he said back “oh hey Chris” I was shocked he called me with his stubborn ass “yeah” he went silent “What’s up?” there was awkward silence on the phone like he was listening to my surroundings “is Robyn there?” he asked breaking the silence “no just Chanise” answering him back “can I speak to her please?” I sighed “aight” I moved the phone from my ear “Chanise come here I got someone on the phone for you” Chanise ran over “here” I passed her the phone but kept her close enough that I could hear Chris and what he was saying to her.
I watched Chanise put the phone to her ear “hello?” she said scrunching her face up “baby it’s me” Chris said I looked at her face brighten up “daddy!!” she squealed “baby I need you to listen to me, don’t tell momma we talked ok? Promise me that” me and Chanise both frowned “whyyyy?” she mumbled dragging the word out “because I want to surprise momma and she can’t know we talked ok?” that seemed believable to her “okay is it a big surprise daddy?” Chris chuckled “yeah it’s a big one but baby what you doing? You being good” Chanise giggled “Yeah but Marley be bad he not have bath” she is such a snitch I thought to myself “oh and does he stank?” Chris said making Chanise laugh even more “he stank bad like momma” Chanise gasped and then laughed again “he smell” she said chuckling “dad?” Chanise shouted “huh yes baby?” he answered “you be good?” I smiled “Yeah I’m good and being good, but baby I miss you so much I can’t wait to give you lots of kisses” Chanise was smiling so wide “I want that daddy and big hug” the phone went silent on his side “daddy?” I heard him sniffle “I give you big hug soon and tell your brother that I miss him and love him lots” she nodded “I promise, daddy we see you soon?” he sighed “yeah you will, daddy has to go and work now but remember that promise okay? Not tell momma” this just proves that him and Rih ain’t talking, I rubbed my head “okay love you ugly” Chanise said to him, he was laughing on the phone which made me smile “bye daddy” Chanise passed me the phone but Chris put it down already “You happy?” she nodded skipping off.
I wiped the tears fell down my cheeks, hearing my daughter’ voice made my heart break that I couldn’t see her smile. I got up from the bed jogging downstairs walking out the house. I called my assistant straight after “I need you to do me a favour, I need you to go shopping, and you’re a girl you know what Robyn would like just buy her anything and everything and send them Barbados please?” My assistant went silent “Buy a gift for Rihanna? Robyn Rihanna Fenty?” I cleared my thorat “I mean Robyn Brown, but that is hard” I smiled a little “listen just do it” I’m still trying to think of a plan and this is the start, my assistant agreed and told me she will after a little thinking “thank you” I put the phone down and then texted Robyn saying I missed and loved her even if she will ignore me this will show her I’m thinking about her.
I walked back in the house, it felt so good being back home in Barbados my mother spoiling me while I spoil my babies that sometimes drive me up the wall but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I skipped to the dining room where my mom, auntie and both my brother’s sat “momma” I put my arms around her kissing her cheek “my baby girl” she smiled wide and I sat down across her “What are y’all discussing?” I questioned, they all looked kind of suspicious “nothing baby just talking” my mother said but I don’t think I believe her “sure” I looked down at my hands and then at my wedding ring, my other hand automatically started playing with the ring. I sighed loudly not knowing I had an audience as I looked up “where is Chris?” Rorrey asked “I told you, he’s busy working” I raised an eyebrow “why?” he shrugged “just shit seems weird, y’all good?” I nodded laughing “Yeah me and Chris are fine why is it people are always wanting us to break up or argue? Y’all my family you shouldn’t be sat here discussing my marriage” My auntie looked shocked “why are you crying then?” not realising a tear escaped my left eye, I quickly wiped it and got up “I got to put my kids to sleep” I walked off.
“Chanise please stop playing and get into bed” I said while helping Marley with his top “boo” Marley shouted giggling I couldn’t help but smile at him kissing his face “love you little man now get in bed please” I picked the clothes from the floor “I want you both in bed by the time I come back” I walked off to the laundry room to put the clothes in the washer. I could hear them shouting from down here and then it went silent, It’s never good when they silent “Bitch!” Mel came behind me “me and you after the brats are asleep” she showed me the blunts and wine which made me smile “I’ll be back” I went upstairs. “I’m coming!” I said before peeping my head around seeing them whispering and Chanise telling him to be quiet. I slipped into the room jumping on the bed making them both scream “whatchu both whispering about” I looked at them both suspiciously “nothing momma” Chanise smiled “momma you heavy!!” she tried moving me “okay give me kisses and I go yeah?” they both kissed my cheek “okay night my babies and see you in the morning. No coming down either ok?” I shuffled off the bed looking, they both nodded.
I went downstairs and into the living room seeing Mel and Mijo cuddling up together, I sighed sitting down I felt like I interrupted them “there you are” Mel said, I smiled “yeah I’m actually tired and feel like going bed” I yawned watching Mel’ face switch “you’re such a boring bitch now, you wanting to go sleep and it’s not even hit 12 yet, damn girl” Mel got up sitting next to me “I got blunts for us and everything and you don’t care about that shit anymore” I looked at Mel and shrugged “I just don’t care for it as much and the kids make me tired” she frowned at me staying quiet. Mijo cleared his throat “how’s Chris” he asked, that name alone made me shudder “erm he’s fine” he nodded “you talked to him recently?” he had this mischievous smile on this face “what’s funny?” he shrugged “tell me?” I licked my lips looking down “uh he’s been too busy to be talking to me” he nodded chuckling “yeah that’s why he was calling me, he called me asking to talk to Chanise which I let him” my mouth fell open “and you let him?” I snapped “oh so you both not talking then? Chanise was so happy to talk to him, whatever is happening with you both don’t let the kids miss out I know that nigga is annoying but Chanise was really happy to talk to him” I was too annoyed at the fact he called Mijo and then talked to Chanise he never listens “shut the fuck up” I got up going upstairs searching for my phone, I’m going to text him a very nice text to his dumb ass.